Memory Lapse

I wrote about my rapidly declining memory some time ago. I also wrote about buying the memory exercise book by Tony Buzan around the same time. With sadness I have to report that I have failed to read the book in its entirety. It was already lost in the midst of other abandoned books in my shelf. Why do I thought of this again? Earlier this evening, I was at shower and at one point, I reached out to grab shampoo. Suddenly I was lost on whether I had or hadn't shampooed my hair. I totally couldn't remember! If I had, it must have happened 2 minutes back. If I hadn't, I couldn't be sure. So unaware of my immediate past actions I took that I'm shocked. So unaware of my surroundings that I'm horrified.

I'm not very old. I shouldn't be having memory lapses like this! Why do we forget things? Why do we remember things? Consciously, we tried to remember certain things but can't commit them to memory. Subconsciously, we remember things that come naturally to us. Our subconscious play such an important role in deciding which facts to remember that I believe 99.99% of our memory are controlled subconsciously. I wish I can perfect the ability to control our minds fully. It'll make life so much easier.

We grow too fast

I'm repeating cliches. Time really flies. In the blink of an eye, here I am, reminiscing the past. The past was so far away, yet it's also so near. It was right before my eyes, and then it was gone. All that was left was the idea of the past, the flicker of memories like blown dust. One day it may hit you again. Or not. Sometimes intact, sometimes in a fraction.

I am bad at recollecting memories. And I'm really afraid some day what's left in the nooks and crannies of my brain will be gone. I know it's going to happen. It's already happening. Maybe since I was born. Cycle of life, guess it's inevitable eh. Brain breakdown. Wahaha!

Anyway, sat down today, one thing leads to another and I started flipping through some old pictures. Snapshots of life, memories, random stuff. You don't even know which goes first, who the people in the pictures were, where you were, what occasion it was, it's all a mess of cris-crossing dots and lines on the same paper continuum.

And what a heck of FUN it was! You'd go "What was I thinking?!", "Was that me?", or "I wish I could do that again!" (most likely). All in good times. I truly need visuals to remind myself every now and then. We really grow too fast.

Enjoy!

Memory

I was typing away on my laptop earlier. I grabbed my phone and smsed my friend to buy dinner for me.

Upon replying, I realized, I just HAD dinner. JUST. What's wrong with me? I still have some soup sitting on the stove, the unwashed plate and bowl on the table, right in front of me! Then it hit me. Hit me hard.

It's short-term memory loss. And I have it. The realization came plenty of times before, but never this serious.

There were the times when I came into the room looking for something, but that something never manifested itself in my mind. Then someone told me a fact, and I struggled to remember that, repeating the same question each time I bump into that person.

People say we only remember the things we want to remember. I suppose that's true in a way. But this is getting way out of my control. Argh.

What am I going to do? What am I going to do? I tried enrolling in an online memory class before, but it turned out to be just another disguised-as-foc class that required you to purchase their own textbook. I gave up then.

Time is running out. I must find an alternative.